Went to the gym with botak today. Then went for lunch with ben and studied at starbucks. Hmmm not say very productive, but better at home at least + he did chem, so i revised whenever he asked me a question so thats good. Tomorrow? not sure if im swimming or im going to starbucks again. mocha (Y)
posted @ 11:17 PM
!&Friday, August 27, 2010
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Fight the good fight of faith.
posted @ 10:40 PM
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Went to the gym with botak just now. He was telling me about his YOG volunteering experience, that he met many people of different nationalities and spent time talking to many coaches of the badminton and table tennis teams. He was in charge of transportation at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. Sounds rather fun to me. Met Nicky at the tower block too, studying with 4 girls. Suddenly I felt so old. Botak is my age, while Nicky is like 3 years ago, but we all played soccer together since I was 7/8. Nowadays everyone is so busy we don't hang out downstairs to talk etc. Daniel was supposed to join us today but his mother had some infection so he went to visit her in the hospital. I am really fortunate to have friends like Daniel and botak because they grew up with me, they understand me well and we can talk about anything under the sun. Hopefully this friendship remains, while i gym with botak 2 times every week :)
posted @ 7:21 PM
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"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile."
Have we ever wondered who our true friends are?
posted @ 3:18 PM
!&Wednesday, August 25, 2010
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Hi. I only feel really secured for physics. Like if you give me a physics paper, I can really do it. So I'm left with chem,math,econs,gp. Chem is rather okay, just need some further revison. Econs still quite afraid that I do not elaborate much. GP dont know how, need to do more essays. Math hmm, more or less still okay, but still kinda afraid :S
Hopefully ill have enough time and the renovation isnt loud. so i can study in peace woohoo
posted @ 7:20 PM
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Hi guys
posted @ 5:50 AM
!&Tuesday, August 24, 2010
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Thoughts are always flowing in my mind. You can say I think a lot. I believe it's true too. I've been thinking about my grandfather for 2 years+, not everyday but maybe once or twice a week, or just a fleeting thought. I had wanted to write this really long ago, and today is finally the day.
He has been staying with me for 14+ years, before he passed away to a painful lung cancer death 5 days before my first O level paper. He was a constant motivation to me and I really missed him a lot till now. Although I was really hurt initially, I managed to pick up my feelings and with the prayer of my 2 form tutors(because I fell sick but I did not tell them about the passing of my grandfather as I did not want any special attention), I managed to do fairy well for my O levels and I really have to thank God for it.
When I was young, he taught me to read and write. I remember times when I was 5-7, he will help me master the writing of Chinese characters by writing the characters by himself but in dotted lines. Thinking back, it was really something I did not cherish and really thank him for. He always brought me and my siblings to Sembawang Park too. My uncle lives near there and we usually go there on holidays to cycle and have fun. He thought me to cycle and always said I took 5 minutes to learn. That is why I wanted to get a road bike back in 2008 and join competitions to win something for him. I went for the inaugural OCBC cycling in 2009 but didn't perform too well due to lack of a good bike and lack of proper training. However, after As, I will do my best to train and join any competition, be it triathlons, biathlons or duathlons.
Also, he always brought me to school in my primary school days, he will take the bus with me, bring me to the gate, and then walk home. How I wish I could turn back time to walk this road all over again, but with me telling him how much I cherish the time we spend together. In secondary school, I did not spend much time with him due to the hectic schedule of my CCA, which was canoeing, but nonetheless, the times I remember were really when I was young.
He truly supported everything I did, and never fails to try to make me laugh when I was really young. He was really a disciplinarian to his own children, but to me and my siblings, he was ever so friendly and you can never imagine he was a disciplinarian. I knew it because my dad told me about his younger days. I never had the chance to preach the gospel to him, or rather I did not know how to make it come out of my mouth. Although my brother tried, I heard he smiled and still said no, I am still unhappy with myself for not trying, because you'll never know what will happen unless you try.
I remember when he was in the hospice(which is a place for people who are going to die), I went to visit him one night with my parents, I brought my chem MCQ paper and did a few questions there. We established eye contact once, he smiled at me, I had to fight my tears from falling. Even now, when I am writing this, I can't help but cry while I think about all the times we had together. Not only did he teach me specific skills, but also how to live my life properly. I clearly remember 4 days before he passed away, I went to visit him in my Uncle's house and I was carrying a really thick History file. I sat right on the side where his head lay, he saw me with this file, he told me to go study, I had to prevent myself from crying again. Why was I bringing my damn file or doing work whenever I went, instead of spending his last few days with him? He still wanted me to do well, I was really touched. His last few days were characterised by increasing the Oxygen content the machine had to give as his whole body was failing, he couldn't speak, but whenever the effects of morphine ran out, he will scream in pain and my grandmother had to feed him the morphine. He was just sleeping until he finally passed away, getting rid of the pain of cancer.
My grandfather is a great man. He stopped his studies because of the Japanese Occupation in Singapore, He was 11 then. He went around trying to earn some money and eventually married his childhood sweetheart. Life then was crap. He had to earn money to feed 4 children. Thus, while juggling work in M'sia, he rode his scooter over at night for night classes. He always boasted about how good he was, particularly one incident where the teacher insisted that he was correct, with only my grandfather not agreeing with him. My grandfather turned out to be right. I truly believed he was a really smart man and a hardworking one too. Our lives today are much more comfortable, we complain about what we have to go through, but if you really think about it, what we are going through is nothing, nothing compared to the shit our ancestors went through. Why don't stop whining and start living our lives, as proper human beings?
Right now, I still do not know how to preach the gospel to my grandmother. I need to one day, before it's all too late. It's really sad knowing that people you love are destined for Hell.
I did not really want to type this all for people to read, but I just wanted to express my feelings.
posted @ 6:29 PM
!&Monday, August 23, 2010
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There was a time I was everything and nothing all in one When you found me I was feeling like a cloud across the sun
I need to tell you How you light up every second of the day But in the moonlight You just shine like a beacon on the bay
And I can't explain But it's something about the way you look tonight Takes my breath away It's that feeling I get about you, deep inside And I can't describe But it's something about the way you look tonight Takes my breath away The way you look tonight
With a smile You pull the deepest secrets from my heart In all honesty I'm speechless and I don't know where to start
posted @ 8:47 PM
!&Sunday, August 22, 2010
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I have been telling a friend how I have good health for at least 3 times without thanking God. Thus now, due to man's foolishness, I am down with this sore throat. Hopefully God will allow me to recover soon.
Very aptly, today's church weekly talks about the second coming of Christ. I have been thinking about it these few days and I would like to share some verses. John said in Revelation 1:7 , "Behold, he cometh with clouds; and every eye shall see him, and they also which pierced him: and all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of him. Even so, Amen." Christ's also said it in John 14:3,"And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also." All these point to the final meeting we have with Christ, when we see him face to face.
Signs of his coming 1.Signs of society 2.War Signs 3.Signs of Globalisation 4.Signs of Israel
I cannot copy everything here because it would be plagiarism. We should be prepared to await Christ.
posted @ 2:53 PM
!&Saturday, August 21, 2010
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Am I a veteran?
posted @ 9:56 PM
!&Thursday, August 19, 2010
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Had math stats today, turned out to be rather okay. hopefully As will be as easy? I hope... right now its focusing on the ultimate goal. realising that 40 years of my life depends on these 2 months.
posted @ 8:08 PM
!&Tuesday, August 17, 2010
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I am always amazed by Elton John's vocal and his ability to sing with so much feeling
posted @ 6:30 AM
!&Monday, August 16, 2010
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I've been wondering whether I am doing enough. Although today has been productive, I still feel the stress. Is it inevitable? Am I doing enough? All I know is that the end is coming "For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places." Matthew 24:7
I should await for the coming of my God... and "Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." Matthew 6:34
For God has planned and everything is predestined, I should put all my trust in him. The end is coming and be glad, for "In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you." , there is already a place for you and me.
